This is dedicated to anyone who has experienced these kinds of nights. Sleepless nights vary in degree and I wanted to capture some of them in this poem. For those under the wings of Jesus, His followers, the battle has only begun! DO NOT GIVE UP!
Another night with shadows
up against the wall.
Another night with heart’s racing,
echoing my fall.
Another tear-soaked pillow
and sweat drenching my sheets.
Another day of hours wasted,
when the bedroom is my fleet.
In the midst of all that’s happening
this is what I know…
You are good.
You are great.
And Lord, You’re always true.
Jesus, please come as I feel
my flesh’s about to suffocate.
The enemy is laughing
as soon as my feet touch the floor.
My mind is blurry and body buzzing
exhaustions meet me at the door.
Arrows have been pointed,
for many weeks it seems.
He won’t let up. Oh, please, Savior!
Come and rescue me!
My shield feels broken.
My sword is in its sheath.
It’s all so heavy.
I’m tired but I can’t sleep.
The word of God begins to ignite.
THIS MY FIGHT!”
“Are your feet shrouded in My Gospel?
Are you wearing the belt of truth?
Where is your helmet of salvation?
I’ve given these things to you!”
“Do not despair, I am your hope!
Do not doubt that I am working!
When you seek Me, you will find Me!
This is what happens, I’m refining!”
Sometimes I’m still exhausted,
but Jesus gives me energy.
Often, I want to give up
when not focused on eternity.
I am a threat to the enemy as
the Savior’s redemption draws near.
For I’m washed in Jesus’ blood,
Thus he strikes me with pain and fear.
Every day is a battle.
Every night is a war.
But my King keeps His word
On His wings, I will soar!
We must gird ourselves and understand that each day and night there is a spiritual battle going on, whether we are aware or not. Pray without ceasing. Worship often. Read scripture. Have your sword out, this is why we must know scripture! The enemy will strike us with situations, difficulty, fear, whispers of doubt, and so much more. God will refine us through trials, but we must be at His feet like Mary, and not distracted like Martha. Distraction often causes us stress because we are not doing what matters the most.
Encourage each other and lift each other up! Pray for one another. When someone is down it may not be the best time to rebuke and scold. It may not be the best time to “tell” them what “you think” they need to hear.
(NIV) Job 30:27, “The churning inside me never stops; days of suffering confront me.” (There was a reason for Job’s suffering.)
(NIV) Isaiah 40:31, “but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.”
(NIV) Ephesians 1:18-19, “I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which He has called you, the riches of His glorious inheritance in His holy people, and His incomparably great power for us who believe. That power is the same as the mighty strength.”
(NIV) Ephesians 6:12, “For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.”
(NIV) Ephesians 6:10-11, “Finally, be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power.
Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.”
What do you do on tough nights? How do you draw closer to Jesus?